It's killing me



Those feelings inside of me is killing me.
I really want someone to love me for who i am and not for who i'm not. I hate acting differently towards different people.


I just want to be me for once.


The girl who don't really care about her looks. The girl who don't give a fuck if she's fat. The girl who don't really care if her hair is messy or not. The girl who loves to eat a lot of food and will still be hungry no matter what.
It's like, I am enduring all this things in school. Every morning, i will try to look good cause first impression counts but that dreads me!
Straightening my hair every morning so my hair will look good. Eating a little bit in school so that nobody will talk behind my back and say " eh, she eat a lot sia "
Controlling my temptation not to buy tidbits in school cause i will never stop once i start eating them. These things might be "heck care" to you guys, but all these things make me feel super insecure.
Maybe that's just my character?


Behind my smile is a hurting heart.

Behind my laugh, I'm falling apart.

Look closely at me and you will see,

the girl I am isn't me.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012 @ 10:03 AM / 0 daisies


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